shut me down

hello girls. =D
i feel like crying now, i just dont know why.
everyone have ups and downs. maybe this is my downfall.
yeah, i know love is something real nice.
and i'm going through it now, ideal?!? i guess not.
when i'm single, i have no worries. when i'm attached, all the worries came.
worry if he'll leave me, worry that we've nothing to talk about, worry feelings will fade away.
worry that he's not the one for me, worry it will end like the previous relationship.
worry that i'll get hurt, sad, jealous, angry.....
there's seems an endless things to worry about. this and that. blah blah blah
i just dont know. i dont want to fall into this love trap again.
maybe girls just put too much into a relationship which i hope i wont.
i wish my worries would just go away together with my tears.
i dont know what to do. maybe i'm really falling into the trap.
i enjoyed my life very much. i want time to stop.
stop at this moment when i can enjoy what i wanted.
i know it wont.

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